Archive for the ‘Pain’ Category

“Will you trust me?”

June 29, 2012

God is so big. His ways are far above our ways. He sees the big picture, we don’t. For us personally, when something or someone is getting in the way of His plan and purpose for us, it is totally likely and possible for Him to remove the obstacle from us so that His will can be done. It could be very hard. But this is where TRUST comes into play. If we are quite enough, we might even hear the words “will you trust me?”

What’s “The Asking Price?”

May 10, 2012

In the song “Undone” by the band FFH, the writers (Jeromy Deibler, Mia Fields) talks about the bitter cancer of hidden secrets that keep tearing one up on the inside. The trying to hide. The asking why? The wondering of “why am I still running?”

Then the plea……”Come undone, Surrender”. And, everyone wants love and honor, but who is willing to pay the asking price? The price that calls for “falling on the knees, falling on the pride”.

Yet still, God is standing by the sinners side, when all the things that one has done, has left Him bleeding.

The Asking Price : Surrender

Hurt, Pain and the Healer

April 7, 2012

“The Hurt & The Healer” Song by Mercy Me

The question that is never far away
The healing doesn’t come from the explained
Jesus please don’t let this go in vain
You’re all I have
All that remains So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide Breathe
Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me throughSo here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

It’s the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all our scars are understood
When mercy takes its rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say “It’s over now”

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When The hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide [x2]

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here

When the hurt and the healer collide [x2]
Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here

Christ has borne it all

December 23, 2011

Some of the “all” that Christ has borne for us is found through the Prophet Isaiah.

One such example is found in the 53rd chapter, verse 4a. It reads, “Surely He has borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows;”. Let us take a look at the word, “griefs”. The Hebrew meaning is “malady, anxiety, calamity, disease, grief, sick (ness). If you are like me, I saw the word “malady” and said, “what’s that?” According to Webster, it means, “sick, bad condition, an unwholesome condition”. Now, when I consider “an unwholesome condition”, it brings a lot with it, does it not? When you talk about this kind of condition, the sky is pretty much the limit, isn’t it?

I believe that we could also include “demon possession” into this “unwholesome condition”. Let us turn to the book of Matthew. Here we will see one of the many cases where Jesus healed. But, there is something to notice here besides just the physical healing.

Let us start with verse 14. “Now when Jesus had come into Peter’s house, He saw his wife’s mother lying sick with a fever. So He touched her hand, and the fever left her. And she arose and served them.” Here we see the physical healing of the fever. But, what is next? Starting with verse 16, we read, “When evening had come, they brought to Him many who were demon-possessed. And He cast out the spirits with a word, and healed all who were sick,”

Here we see that “many” were brought to Him who were “demon-possessed”. He casts out the “spirits” of demons that were in them, and He healed the sick. Together He did them both. He didn’t say, “tonight we are going to heal the sick, then tomorrow we are going to cast out the demon spirits. No, they were done the same day. We won’t take the time to read the many other accounts were Christ healed and casted out demons at the same time. Physical healing and the casting out of demons run hand in hand.

Now, check this out. Why was this done this way? Verse 17 explains. “that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Isaiah the prophet, saying: “He Himself took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses.” Here he was speaking about Isaiah 53:4. Even though the quote is worded a little different here in Matthew, it’s meaning is still the same. The word, “infirmities” here in the Greek means, “feebleness (as in body or mind)”. By implication it means, “malady”. Bingo! Where did we see that meaning before? Right. The same as the Hebrew word, “griefs” found in Isaiah. The definition goes on for “infirmities” with, “frailty, disease, sickness, weakness”.

In the end, we can safely say the Christ bore everything that was “sick, bad or any unwholesome condition.” This includes “Demon-possession”. Christ also bore this in his humanity for us. Isn’t this awesome! Nothing is left out! CHRIST HAS BORNE IT ALL FOR US!

Now, I can’t leave without asking the question, have you personally believed that Christ has borne it all for you? Whatever you have carried in your life to this point, be it “abuse”, be it “self-hatred”, be it “anger”, be it “unforgiveness”, be it “addictions” of any kind, Christ has borne it all. But, we must give it ALL to him, personally. He has already carried it, but you have to give it up. You can’t hold back and keep some, or part of it. All must go for Him to bare it all.

“God doesn’t answer my prayers”

November 26, 2011

Or, “I’ve tried God, it didn’t work for me”.

In ministry, I have heard many people make these kind of remarks. Basically, whenever they were in need, or had a crisis in their life, they cried out to God for his help. When they became desperate they needed or wanted God. This is common when we as human’s need something, or someone.

It is certainly not wrong to cry out to God in times of need. This is how most people come to have a relationship with Him. Most come when their backs are against the wall, so to speak. He does allow difficulties, and He also does cause them in some cases. Of course, when you mention “cause” that is very touchy ground. If I were to say that He caused some kind of tragedy, or unfortunate circumstance, most, if not all would run away from God, not towards Him. We of course, can’t know for sure whither He allowed it or cause it. In any case however, God is over all, and he is in control of all. Nothing happens in one’s life without Him not knowing, and not knowing why and how.

Everybody would jump on board if God was a “Santa Clause” God. If all he did was treat us like spoiled children and give, give and give without no obedience, no acting right, what kind of people would we be? I guarantee we would be as a people, way worse off than we are now. If there were no restraints with God? What happens with children when they are spoiled and given everything they want? What happens when they become adults? The answer is easily available, take a look around.

So, it’s hard to confront the reason why “God doesn’t answer our prayers”. Why? Because you have to deal with the most honest, difficult and hard realization there is. What is that? SIN. Nobody wants to talk about it. Nobody wants to bring it up. It’s offensive. It gets more personal than anything else you have to deal with in life. It’s the “hardest of hard”.

Now, there are two classes of people. Those who have believed on the Lord Jesus Christ, and have trusted him for the forgiveness of their sins, and have allowed Him to be Lord of their lives. Then, there are those who have not yet believed and received.

In this post, I am not going to take the time to address “God not answering my prayers” to those who have yet to receive Christ. If you are one of these, this of course must be your first step. He is a God who does answer our prayers. But, the prayer He is waiting to hear from you, is that of crying out to Him in repentance (wanting to turn and give up sin) and asking for forgiveness for the offences that you have done against Him. It’s hard, but it must be done.

For those who have received Christ at one time, but are not currently living for Him and allowing Him to be above all in their lives, this is for you.

The Prophet Isaiah very clearly and pointedly puts forward the key for God answering our prayers. We would all agree, that one would have to first be able to “hear” our prayer before one could answer, right? So, the question would go out, why doesn’t God hear my prayer?

In the passage of Isaiah 59:1-3, it very clearly speaks of being separated from God. While the passage can also be used to teach us that sin separates us from God, when we are outside of a relationship with God, it also speaks to those who may have at one time had that relationship and walked with him. However, because of sin, they have become strayed from Him, and the wall of separation is being built, brick (sin) by brick. Where they might have had a one time relationship with Him, there is now no “hearing” from God for their prayers.

One must ask, “why is this the case!”. “Why doesn’t God answer my prayers!” These questions could very well be the best ones to ask. They could lead to finding the answer as to why doesn’t He hear me.

Isaiah speaks:

“Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; nor His ear heavy, that it cannot hear. But your iniquities (perversity) have separated you from your God; and your SINS have hidden His face from you, so that He will not hear. For your hands are defiled with blood, and your fingers with iniquity; your lips have spoken lies, your tongue has muttered perversity.”

It’s a hard passage, but true. It gives the answer as to why God will not “hear”. Again, he has to hear first to be able to answer.

So, if you want your prayers to be answered (and of course, answered according to the one who knows best what our needs are) or more importantly, heard, so He can began to move, repair, make new etc. his will for you, turn in prayer towards Him. Cry out to Him for help. Really desire to turn from sin. Realize that you are bound up in it, and that you cannot turn from it on your own. You want deliverance!

For He has said, “Seek the Lord while He may be found, call upon Him while He is near. Let the sinner forsake his way, and the unrighteous person his thoughts; let them return to the Lord, and He will have mercy on them; and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon.” (Isa.55:6-7)

There you have it. Come to the God of Mercy and Pardon. He is waiting to Forgive.

Pursuing Life

May 25, 2011

The physical existence of life here on earth consists of being alive physically, but yet, dead spiritually. Why? Because of our sins, which produce spiritual death in us. Our inner spirit searches for life, while the physical man tries to find life in physical pursuits. One will spend their whole life trying to find true contentment, peace, love and joy, but will never find it outside of receiving the Spirit of God. Why? Because the Spirit is true love, joy, peace and inner contentment.

“I Refuse!”

March 7, 2011


Like I have said many times, it’s all by choice. You and I can choose each day how we want to live. I am not talking about circumstances that are beyond our choice. In life, there are many things that happen to us that we have no choice over. But, we must not camp there. We must take a hard look at our life, and see how we are living. Are we satisfied? Are we content? I am talking about deep down inside. Only we can answer these questions. We can all put on a real front to the outside world.

The main reasons why most people are not truly satisfied, is because first off, they are living for themselves. Our world cries out for us to live more for ourselves than for anyone or anything. It is and has raised, more self-seeking individuals then ever before. It yells out to us, “it’s all about me”.

So, we must ponder within ourselves what must change? I have lived on this earth for X amount of years, am I truly satisfied? Do I enjoy daily living? Or, is the only time I enjoy living is when I am off doing my own thing? Off somewhere besides work?

In my life, I have found out what makes true peace, contentment, joy and satisfaction. It is coming into a relationship with our creator. It is getting to know Him on a personal basis. I am not talking about some religious siff-coat life. I am not even talking about church going. While, church can be good and encouraging, that is only 2 to 3 hours a week, out of 168. I am talking about daily living for something other than ourselves.

Besides this developing relationship with God, which has to do with people, life takes on real meaning and purpose. You began to live for God and for others. Does this mean that it will always be easy? No. But satisfying? Yes. I have tried both in this life, and I can truly say that not living for myself is far more meaningful and purposeful.

If you have been living for yourself up until this point in your life, why not choose to change? If you’re not truly happy and content with daily living, then what have you got to lose? I can’t stress enough that I am talking “Daily living” here. Not “evening living” or “weekend living” or not even “vacations” or “retirement”. No, I am talking “Daily living”.

The following is a song by Josh Wilson. You can go to the video at the end and hear it. God bless you!

Sometimes I,
I just want to close my eyes
And act like everyone’s alright
When I know they’re not.
This world needs God
But it’s easier to stand and watch.
I could pray a prayer and just move on
Like nothing’s wrong.

But I refuse.

‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care.
I don’t want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse.

I can hear the least of these
Crying out so desperately,
And I know we are the hands and feet
Of you, oh God.
So, if you say move,
Then it’s time for me to follow through,
And do what I was made to do.
Show them who you are.

‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care.
I don’t want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse.

To stand and watch
The weary and lost
Cry out for help.
I refuse
To turn my back
And try and act like all is well.
I refuse
To stay unchanged,
To wait another day,
To die to myself.
I refuse
To make one more excuse.

‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care.
I don’t want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move, but I refuse


December 10, 2010

“To be restored to the divine favor of God”


When sin entered the world through one man, Adam, the judgment of “Guilty” came to all mankind (all of us). His sin brought forth death, both physical and spiritual (separation).

BUT, then comes God’s free gift of His Son, Jesus. Now, the undeserved gift of “Not Guilty” is available to all who put their trust in Him. All who receive (by choice) God’s abundant grace are freely put right with God. They will rule and reign in this life through Christ, and Christ alone.

Forsaking the “Call” of God

September 12, 2010

What needs to be reminded to those who have forsaken the call of God on their lives, is the serious consequences that follow.

When I say “call”, I mean the special plan and purpose that God has place upon ones life. This could be a broad spectrum that encompasses a vast area of the individuals particular gifting and talents. When it’s all said and done, it is what the individual was created for. No where, is the individual to have his or her’s own plans.  It must come from getting to know God on a personal level, and finding out in time, what one was created for. It’s a process that all believers must embark upon. If there is no investment to find out, then it will not be found. The only way it comes, is by seeking. All things of God come through seeking Him and His will. No seek, no find.

A life spent without knowing God’s plan and purpose, is a waste, so to speak. Think about it for a moment. God has created the individual by His plan and design, His will to be done for that person while on earth. Because God is exact and makes no mistakes in all creation, how can we think for a minute, that it’s “hit and miss” with Him? Take a look at the universe and see how everything falls into place. The human body, how it’s design is beyond comprehension. God is God, and He is perfect in all His ways. Even for the way we were created to walk in.

The God given gift of free-will always comes into play. I know that there are those who think differently, but it still doesn’t change the fact that in a given day, we make countless decisions all by our free-will. We choose, moment by moment. Yes, God is sovereign, but He designs us as creatures of choice. Make no mistake about it.

Part of my testimony involves a period of time in my life where I personally chose to turn away from what I knew that God had call me to, and what I was created for. This involved a one on one encounter with God, where I purposely argued with Him that I knew what was best for me and that I was going to do what I deemed best for me. I did, and the consequences were very costly to say the least.

He respects our free-will. Think about it for a moment. He gave us this “free-will” in the first place, yet He turns it over to us to chose and use it as we see best. Now, I must certainly say, that all the time that this takes place in our lives, He is continually trying to mold and shape us after His will and not our own will and ways. This “molding and shaping” involves a lot of “tough love” for sure. God sees all of eternity and we don’t. He knows what is best for us, so He continually moves in many seen and unseen ways. Always pursuing us with His love, which is God’s love, not human love. It works in ways we can’t comprehend, for it is God’s ways, God’s love.

This all was brought to mind again this past week. I was reading from the book of Romans, on the street corner, and a lady stopped and listened to the words. Soon, we engaged in an conversation that had to do with her husband. She shared how that several years ago her husband was doing the same thing that I was doing. Now he was an alcoholic and they are homeless living out of their van, both they and their youngest son. She shared awesome testimonies how God had worked in the past. Now they were desperate and in great confusion as to where they were at and where they were headed. She knew the reason for all of their woes. She was just trying to hang on for another day, as she watched her son and husband deteriorate.

After we finished talking, she asked if I would mine meeting her husband and son. She knew where she had left them that day, and hoped that they were still there. So we took off and walked a few blocks. Soon, she pointed to them on the corner, a block up from where we were. When we got there, her husband was standing next to a pole holding a cardboard sign that read, “Any amount will help us. Homeless and $1 will help”. Their 16yr. old son was sitting on the ground next to him.

Here was a family that had reached the bottom in a relatively short amount of time. Once, they were actively involved in their church, and actively involved in ministry. Now they were bagging for help.

We had an awesome time sharing. They related from sharing about the past, how God moved in their lives. Testimonies that were powerful. All from the past. How sad to hear nothing current. I was moved to give them a twenty, then it went to the current provision and how thankful they were to God.

I encouraged him to get back on track with God, and that His “gifts and callings were without repentance”. (once He gives something, He doesn’t take it back). We had prayer and finished our visit. I gave them my number and hope that they will come to our gathering on Tuesday nights.

In closing, there is a high cost to pay when one chooses to go his or hers own way. Whether it’s forsaking God, or forsaking His call on our lives, the price is steep. Many have yet to return. Many have years of pain and sorrow that could have been prevented, if only they would have stayed and chosen to do what they knew to do.

Where are you today? Is He still Lord? Are you still following Him with all your heart? How about the “known” plan and purpose of God, the call of God on your life? It’s not too late, if your heart is still soft. Turn before it’s too late. Save yourself some heartache, some pain and loss. There will be no regrets. God’s way has none.

God speaks through songs

August 8, 2010

I heard this song this morning on my way to work. I have heard it a few times before, but never really caught hold of the words. Or, possibly it wasn’t the right time. I know that God speaks through songs/music for sure. Like I have said recently, He has been speaking to me a lot through them.

For anybody that doubts the fact, take a look at the Book of Psalms. David wrote many songs through his life experiences. We read them and tend to forget what he went through that caused him to write them. Good songs always come from the heart and from the experiences that the songwriter has personally gone through.

When we hear songs that speak to us, it is because we can relate to some or all of what’s being sung. It hits a cord within our heart. It can make us sad or happy. It can cause us to cry or smile, but never the less, it speaks to us.

For most people, life has dealt them some form of pain or loss. While it can be viewed by others as not really much loss or pain, it is to them real. Why? Because they are the ones who went through it personally. Nobody can know the exact pain or loss that they personally went through. There are lots of similarities in loss and pain, but it still does not take away from the personal experience. We are all different individuals which process our suffering, grief and pain differently.

In this song, it can speak to one through several ways. Just a couple of examples could be:

Maybe one has built a beautiful house, or had a business that they started from scratch, and in a moment of time it was gone. For some, a flood, earthquake or storm has taken away their house. Or maybe, the storm of a financial collapse has taken away their lifelong savings.

Maybe one has dreamed of someday being able to live with someone who really loves them. They have dreamed for years to no avail.

Maybe one has been praying for years that someday there will be a cure for their child who cannot walk because of a birth defect.

Maybe someone has loved their wife or husband for years and years, only to see them be taken away because of cancer. Or one who has been faithful to their spouse for years, only to find out that their spouse has been unfaithful.

Whatever the loss, pain, hurt or grief, this song does have determination built into it. It speaks of, “Build it anyway”, “Dream it anyway”, “Do it anyway”, “Believe it anyway”, “Love em anyway”, “Sing it anyway”.

Through it all we must have a foundation to stand on when like the song says, “life ain’t good” because of what we are experiencing or what we have experienced. At any rate, there must be a foundation to stand on when the storm comes. Most will turn to drugs and or alcohol to cope when the storm hits. This will not help cure the pain, only nullify it to help make it comfortable. Only to wake up to it the next day and start it all over again.

Our foundation must be found in God through Christ. Nothing in this world is for certain. Our jobs, our houses, our children, our spouses, our boy friends, our girl friends etc. can be taken from us in a heart beat. As I have said, “people can let us down, but God will never”. We must not put our faith in people. If we do, we could be setting ourselves up for real pain and disappointment. Our faith must be in God alone.

I remember years ago, hearing from a friend about his friends lost. This man had a lovely wife and three small kids. One day, the wife takes the children out in the car to go get some food to eat. She meets with an oncoming car head on. Both the wife and the three small children are taken out into eternity. The husband comes home from work, and after a while, begins to wonder what is taking the wife so long. (this was back before the “cell phone”). Finally, he gets the unthinkable knock on the door…….

Life is not fair. For some it is much harder than for others. There is no known reason as to why some do really suffer and others suffer little. But, in any case, suffering is suffering. Pain is pain. Grief is grief. Heartache is heartache. To the one who is experiencing it, it is real.

Let us have more compassion on others and what they have or are going through.

I can relate with pain, loss and heartache. I can truly say that if I would have not been found on the Rock, I would have been sinking deep by now. I am so thankful for all of God’s help over the past two years. I do give him all the credit for being the Rock for which I can stand on. Without him there is no real hope, especially when we consider eternity.

After reading these words, listen to the song at the end and see if it speaks to you. If you know God through Christ, may He continue to give you determination to press on and “Dream”, “Build”, “Do”, “Believe”, “Love” and “Sing”. If you don’t know God, may you turn to Him and put your faith in Christ. May you be blessed!

SONG:” Anyways” By Martina McBride

You can spend your whole life buildin’

Something from nothin
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This worlds gone crazy
And it’s hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all YOUR heart
For all the right reasons
And in a moment they can choose to walk away
love em anyway

God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yeah I do it anyway, yeah,

You can pour your soul out singin’
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they’ll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yeah sing it anyway, yeah, yeah

I sing
I dream
I love anyway, yeah.